Self Understanding Part 1

Self-Understanding Part 1

The human being can ‘know about’ many things, but can understand only one thing – itself. Understanding is primary, immediate, undivided, where as knowing, which is a thought process is secondary and through thought we can never capture the actual, that which is thought about. In understanding yourself there is no division between yourself and understanding. You understand yourself as only you can. And only you can because only you are you.
To analyse or ‘think about’ yourself is by its very nature and effect, ‘a state’ of self-ignorance. To know yourself is immediate. To know ‘about’ yourself is secondary, a state once removed from yourself.

It is only by thinking about yourself in fact that you lose touch with the actual felt sense of yourself as you are, which vibrates or pulses throughout every cell making up you. When you are at odds with how you are you have already entered into thought reaction ‘about’ you. The thought reaction takes form as suppression, denial, condemnation and avoidance of the truth of yourself and then you have self-ignorance. From this all religion, psychology and any other off shoots in the countless forms of self-discoveries are born.

As you choose to deny, avoid, suppress, and condemn aspects of yourself you therefore choose ‘self ignorance’ imposing this upon yourself by thinking about yourself.
The limits of thought.
The massively destructive oversight of all ‘self thinkers’ and ‘no-self thinkers’ (Buddhist etc) is that thought is a function or instrument limited to contemplating and knowing about (but never truly understand) all that ‘is not’ you. But it is not a function for understanding yourself. And when used to understand yourself it can only result in misunderstanding, in self-ignorance.

You cannot make thought achieve something it’s not capable of doing. It is not the tool for understanding yourself or anything else. It is the tool for estimations about things outside yourself or things ‘about’ yourself so that you can get by and function adequately in the world.
If thinking isn’t the tool for self-understanding then what is?
There isn’t one!
There isn’t one because there is no need for one. For there isn’t anything to understand – you are yourself. Therefore you are the only ‘thing’, only creature and only substance in existence, which you cannot not understand.

But through indulging in the complexities of thinking you/we are able to avoid and deny anything and render ourselves oblivious to anything of ourself, which we wish to. By fabricating complex thought patterns of denial and avoidance and being busy in the preoccupations of such thinking we create a delusional alternative experience, parallel to but oblivious to the real one of ourselves as we really are.

The con within all schools of self-discovery.
To further strengthen our self-delusion of not knowing (what in fact we cannot not know) ourselves, we create complex structures of thought, (based on the premise we don’t know ourselves and therefore must search for ourselves) such as psychology and other religions and philosophies with the sole aim of discovering or understanding or enlightening ourselves ‘to ourselves’ (or non-selves). Cleverly disguised and permeating through all this is the presumption and in fact the suggestion that it is possible ‘not to’, therefore further presuming and suggesting we can be separated from ourselves, which of course is nonsense for there is only one of us. The famous nonsensical fools question ‘who am I’ suggests: there are two of me. share this website This question is a trick dividing you from the obvious sense of yourself into and idea of yourself, which is no more then the activity of thought, making up the question itself.
Then taking it one step further and backing up this first con, there is that ‘massive’ con that knowing yourself is both rare and a privilege. It’s a watertight con. Can you see what I’m saying?
1. All that you are is within all that you experience of yourself all the time.
2. When you are disturbed you react to that and detach yourself into thoughts about yourself (or about that part of yourself) – creating the illusion of a second or another ‘you’.
3. These thoughts form into denial and avoidance of what it is you are but don’t want to be. Thereby you lose touch with your sense of self, which is there in whatever truth of yourself you deny and avoid.
4. Hence creating your own disassociation you ask a psych or a guru or a religious fanatic – who am I?
5. You’ve got to be kidding. Don’t do that, all those people are phonies. The proof of this is that the bases of where they are coming from is that you can not know yourself and then by ‘thinking about’ yourself ‘their way’ you may, just may, if you are very special ‘know yourself’ or heal yourself as if being yourself as you are is a disease.

That the premise of those experts very existence is based on that confusion and ignorance shows they are in fact the loonies who presume ‘not understanding or knowing’ yourself is actually possible and that you are diseased as you are.
These crazy individuals like Buddha and Yung and Freud and J.Krishnamurti and all the rest have projected their own complex thought structures of utter confusion into everyone they have got to.
Are you really that lost?

Common, be honest now; just for a moment notice this. How does it feel to you to be you? Yes inside and all through you, how does it feel, what is it like in there. If you say ‘I don’t know’, you are only saying ‘I don’t know how to put it into words’. So forget words. Before words come into it what’s it like to be you. Don’t tell me; sense it in the pulsating throbbing body of life you are.

Not what you ‘think’ you are – that’ll be bullshit for you have been taught to think that by others who want you to think that way – therefore they are not even your own thoughts. So ignore them and sense the existence of this living organism of you.

Now the only problem you have left is, not liking it. Not liking how it feels to be you. But that doesn’t change the fact that it is still you, the living breathing thinking organism, that’s it you have no escape. It’s not what you expected – it would be to know yourself, but that’s it.
Anything you ‘are not’ can only be recognised through thought but never truly known.